Well I had my first doctors appointment on Monday. That was "fun" ... I had made myself an appointment for the first ultra sound on next Monday. But yesterday they called me and told me they really felt due to my past pregnancy troubles, they wanted me to come in this week for the ultra sound (not next week) SO I am going in tomorrow morning. When they called me back it was kinda hard because it was like my own little wake up call that I am not "out of the water yet" just because I have announced it (way earlier than I did with past pregnancy's) doesn't mean I am "safe" So it kinda made me stop and think and wonder if I could handle it if something was wrong? Could my kids? I know the answer is yes. But I still haven't slept very good since this realization hit me. I am sure it will all be fine and all this worrying will have been for nothing. But either way I cant wait till tomorrow.